Reflection of The Cross Within Your Gaze

Secular repetition of the end imminent

For there were no answers nor light in the shadow of the cross

The weight of the Church beheld at our throats

For when we returned there was no home for us there

To disappear from the walls where I once lived

To fade away in the hope I had for today

Emptiness in the heart of the loss of our past forevermore

Just the winding road solely existing in your trajectory

35 gallons took me to my next pit stop

or the nearest dive bar

Though I do not drink

I am      -     I was

The last Hail Mary on your mother’s rosary

Shameful living of the hermit in depravity

Life once lived; life never lived

God forgot us all, how were I to accept myself?

Absolutes spoken defined me

For I was to never escape its grasp or hold on my soul eternal

Shame reincarnate and personified

The stranger failed at playing God

Sinful, bashful

Perversion of the sacraments

For I was never holy; nor will I ever be

Nor will I ever hit my tenure

Of life, of living, of love,-solely lust