The End is Near (For Those Who Can See)
Did your lips stay forever stained on the rim of my cup
The only forever I let us have
From the window of the first floor bathroom
- the view into the garden
The dream we could never have
You an endless believer
Me a hopeless realist
Did I ever fight for our wildest dreams
Or did I leave them to wilt in the sun?
Stunted before they could grow like the roses I gave from February
Or the Poppy's from May I let die
An endless cycle, karmic right?
Every film reel, music note, drop poured
Brings me back to you
It’s all you I see, and all you I feel
We got our forever but not how we imagined
Forever past tense
How the words I once told you I wanted to live between us eternally
And now it kills me to say to someone else
Creator forsaken us, save us at the bay
How every season came and I was never the same
All the soliloquies, and love sonnets I wrote, movies I made, strings I strum
A saving grace was a falsehood of ours
Pathetic admittedly so an endless cycle
Were you permanently every song on shuffle through my car stereo
The fall you drove to my house in Queens
Saw the city and fell in love
The winter I flew to where you were born
Saw the water and fell in love
Forever built on foreign lands
Crashed like the Ford going into the Queens Midtown Tunnel
How everything always changed
Smoke filled the sky when I was 17
No car anymore but I’d find my way to you
When all I knew was you and how everything changed before that night in November
Touched down in Penn Station and was born into a new world alone
Now on the precipice of 21 nothing changed, everything changed, everything stayed the same, except for us
When you turned 21 I looked to the sky and hoped you did the same
Contrary, however do you think of me?
Emptiness becoming and shadow chasing
Could you ever forget what it felt like for the first time or for the last time?
Memorized the fall of your hair over your forehead
Or the glaze of the sweat from the Tuscan sun
I knew at the coast that forever ended here
